Organic girl ( a woman in a junk food world finds peace with a rice cake)

I could begin by saying that I used to be a BIG, adventurous eater. I ate foods from greasy diners and Mexico was my home away from home and I lived and played amongst Desebuqui Indians who ate dogs. (Got ya! No I didn’t eat the poor things, I played the pied piper with fish and lured them all out of the village but that’s another story) I ate in Germany and drank so much beer once I swashed when I walked. (Maybe I swooshed…anyway I sang “Singing in the rain” while I waddled with pain) I ate shrimp and lobster and okra (Yuck) and duck and cornish hens and so many kinds of corn I popped.  I never weighed a pound over 100 until I went to college and lived in a dorm and I feasted on anemic lettuce and cake by the pound. From double fisting M&M’s and corn nuts to omelets with cheese I grazed my way through life without a thought as to what went into my mouth. Food was glorious and I was molded and shaped by my dancing and the gym and the pool. Then in the summer of my  24th year of life I was blissfully minding my own business and was literally doused with a pesticide that was being applied by workers in white protective suits as they sprayed a large tree on the other side of a hill I happen to be riding on. In my bare legs and my open mouth I took a full hit of the poisons and my world shifted into a lifelong fight with my beautiful body. Overnight I lost all ability to eat normally. I was hospitalized for almost a year. I entered into this bizarre world of “poison” and the healthy, strong eater became an 80 pound emaciated girl. But I am a fighter and out of the ashes of this horrendous lesson I began to emerge a stronger spirit. Out of the poisoning came “Organic girl!” This shift in my life changed completely the terraine of my eating. I found a place I call the garden of happy endings. When your so sick you can’t swallow you have to find other means of supporting life. Enter the world of liquid proteins. I drank shakes with organic berries and whey proteins and I ate huge sweet potaotes right out of the garden. My world narrowed to greens and drinks and dried, organic fruits and raw nuts. I learned about tofu (which at first made me wrinkle my nose) but now is one of my favorite dishes, scrambled with vegetables and sea salt. I am no longer a BIG fan of eating. I became an eat to live girl, not a live to eat girl that I once was. My idea of a big date with food is a rice cake with butter or organic cheese. (I know right?) I am known once in the summer to eat so much organic vanilla ice cream that I am up for a day with the sugar and ride my beautiful beach bike and sing at the top of my lungs because my body is so damn happy to have some ice cream on a summers day. If I did that more than a few times I would become an instant diabetic…(my sugars have not been stable since the poisoning) So it is a treat. I share all of this because the world is food obsessed.I once had a man whom I had been dating say he could never marry me because his family was all about the food…Yea ok, I realize now that he was not the one for me (did I mention he gave me a tire for my birthday?) but the fundamental issue was his food obsessed world did not match mine.
I am obsessed with problems of global warming and Monsanto being given so much power over our food supplies. Our beautiful ecosystem is failing with the GMO seeds and foods that Monsanto and our goverment are in greedy beds together, peddling to consumers the death of GOD given food production. When you inject a seed with a pesticide you will kill much of the fragile ecosystem called “Life”.Our precious honey bees and the birds that bring so much joy in song are dying at alarming rates. So I am searching once again for the answer to the problem of foods that will heal, not hurt us. I am back in the garden. You know the garden of happy endings, where “organic girl” lives. I realized that you can garden and grow your own beautiful healthy food in pots on your deck, or acres on your farm, or rows in your green house. I am learning the art of composting and the natural way to kill a bug. It’s cool because I think it’s the answer to life, to keep things simple and not use the cancer causing chemicals to do the lazy garden ways. Nope, give me a morning on my knees, pulling out weeds and watching beautiful, tiny villages of creatures and bugs (ladybugs and praying mantis and butterflies to name a few) do what they have done for thousands of years, control the population of bad bugs and pollinate flowers and dance with bees who will bring their hard work back to their hive and make Gods nectar “honey.” It’s a simple and beautiful dance and it keeps me happy and healthier than I could ever be eating the easy American, fast food way. So as the garden slowly beckons me again I share my thoughts of making peace with a junk obsessed world and I suggest you keep it simple. Eat to live,eat to nourish and to heal. Find your spirit grow light and find your garden of happy endings. Plant to nourish the bees and give them a chance to survive by NEVER spraying a chemical in your yard. Think about affirming life and being a guardian of the gardens of grace. You’ll be amazed at the joy when you see the bees dance. It’s remarkable really.